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just posting these here so I don’t lose them
Where can I be me
Trying to find, everything to make it right for you
I try so hard but it’s never good enough
I don’t know why I persist with this
just to see you smile while I’m dead inside
that we’ve done
means so much to me
but nothing to you, though I’ve learnt how to cope with it
a strong mind
everything to make it work
Now it’s just so hard for me to get a grip of you
it’s hard for me to express the way I feel
but I don’t believe in miracles
but it’s now or never
and I can’t believe that it’s come to this
But you have to know I would do anything
to make you happy, to bring you here again
but sadly now it’s far too late
I must rebuild, I got to escape
this feeling is overwhelming me
never have I felt this emptiness
but like I’ve said I have the answers
so now it’s time to grow
You hold the power in your hands
You dictate your actions in life
So make the moves you’ve got to make
To make these changes actuality
Little personal song I wrote for the new band, it’s about me and my journey and my ever changing mental state and outlook on life.
It’s just so hard singing this song
Cause everytime I speak it seems I go to far
This life, it seems so hard
Whenever I get close it seems I’m falling back
But I won’t let this get me down
I will be me, I will be the man I used to be
Trying to build a life on poor foundations
Never seemed so hard
Now I know how sad it sounds to be
But I’ll try to do what’s right for me
You call it running away, but I say it’s trying to escape
From this nightmare I call my life when all I wanna do is live a dream
So now hold my pride as a reminder, cause my head is now inpenetrable
I gotta get my head together, cause right now it’s now or never
I gotta do all I can do to be what I want to be
Now I wait for my glory days, I sit enriched full of life experience waiting for the next hurdle to overcome
Now I’m free
It’s funny how little effort is placed upon the simple notion of rationality. If people focused on it a little more and a little less on their ego and their personalities imagine the endless potential for to put it simply greatness. People talk about these great thinkers and minds, but why should you look upon someone like that as something to only learn from and not something to overtake? Why are so many people so content with mediocrity? Why do so many people just sit there and allow life to fuck them in the face and just sit there smiling and taking it? Is it the worry of failure? How much worse could it get? You hate your job, you hate your boss, you hate your friends, you hate your girlfriend, the only reason you have and comply with these things is because you’ve been raised up to think it’s the right thing to do. And I’m not saying it’s not the right or wrong thing to do, but think, has human progression just abruptly stopped at the year 2012? No decades before today even? No! People, fucking do something about your shit life, ask why, ask why the fuck does my life suck so much? Why does it suck, I acknowledge the suckishness of my life and allow it to continue? Lemme tell you why, here’s the big answer I’ve come to thus far and am trying to get people to come to terms with and employ, the attitude of man if such a complex thing, think about it if you go to watch a new movie and the reviews and everyone says it’s shit then it turns out to be something you really like then you like it even more because of your low expectations. Or alternatively a new movie that’s been given really good reviews by your friends and you go in with the highest of expectations and if turns out to be not even that good. Well this concept is one to be applied to everyday life, if you think today’s gonna suck from the get go and that’s the kind of shit you’re dragging along all day, then yes it probably will. And I’m not talking about visualising something and then hoping it’ll turn out that way. I am talking about the attitude of which you go about things with. I’m talking about going into everything you do with a different mindset. And most importantly I am talking about dealing with life as a group of lessons, something to learn from, because in the end of the day if you can’t learn from your mistakes and even your achievements then you can’t have true progression in your life. Okay I’m off to bed I’ll finish this rant another day.
One of the slower songs in our set, it is not apart of the chapter’s. Just another song about people and society and how I want to be a little different to what is the norm in society. Even though I doubt that’s the way it’s gonna go I’m still going to try and break the barriers set by society upon me. Liberate yourself, liberate your mind, liberate your being.
Society, it makes me see, how not to be
Just try to dream, that you’ll be free
Repression, Depression, Inflation, Creation
It takes the life out of me, It takes the life out of me, It takes the life out of life (It takes the life out of me)
Working jobs from nine to five, hoping to get out of your life, no matter how hard you try, you’re deemed for struggle and strife.
Now it seems for everyone and everything, that the emphasis which they put on failure overwrites any positivity.
I said it once and I’ll say it again
The attitude of man needs a serious change
but it’s not a case of changing your life so drastically You just gotta alter your perception of you, to break out, break free, break out, break out from the limitations you place on yourself
The second chapter in this is a progression of mentality made by the person, even though it’s about a guy who I said is not necessarily myself, this song is very much about what’s going through in my life, a direct expression of my mentality and emotional state. Sometimes our true personality is lost among the bullshit of life and it takes a lot, and I mean a lot of work to get it back but if it’s what you want then go for it because sometimes the person you become is not the same one you want to be when you’re an adult. I don’t want to be bitter, easily tempered with, jealous, insecure or arrogant. I want to be a little bit more like me, the real me.
The truth is it’s far too hard preaching positivity
When you are stuck in a rut and there’s no one there to help you out
All you can do is rely on yourself
‘Cause you won’t let you down
You always think for your best
I just wanna be
The guy who I used to be
I’m keeping my head straight
This is not who I am
Who I was three years ago versus who I am today
Makes me see I’m stuck in a cycle and from it I must escape
The ideals I held made me conquer anything
Positive or negative I learnt from everything
How did I lose sight of myself
Make me feel so insignificant
But now my eyes are open and I’ll re-kindle this flame
I found the answers
Now I must apply
Know what to live by
To be myself
This is the first part to a 3-chapter(ed) song I wrote, even though parts may be in first person in some of writing, it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s me I’m talking about all of the time, this song is one of them, even though at the point in time I wrote this I wasn’t in the best frame of mind, so in a sense is is somewhat reflective of my mood right then and there. You’ll also notice that in my writing I tend to go through negativeness and end on a positive or a solution to the negatives I write about and I do so because there’s always a solution to the issues we face. This song commences pretty down and depressed and ends on a real self-empowering note, even though I say I am me, I am man, I’m not trying to be subjective to the guys I mean it as a more empowering humanistic message rather than a sexual type thing.
This is the first time I have felt myself veer off towards the edge
Succumbing to my inner fear of losing everything I hold dear in my heart
I live for no one, I breathe for nothing
As no lives or breathes for me, am I really alive? Or would I be better off dead?
I hate my fucking self, and I hate this fucking life
And it’s all because of what society has done to me
Countless days and nights I spend thinking of a way to set myself apart, but it’s just so hard, it’s just so hard, it’s just so hard to be free
So sit here now with an open mind
And try to think of a way out
To not conform to tradition, to war, to hate, to all that breaks this world down (x2)
This is who I am
I’ll do all I can
I am me, I am man
We as people I feel are too close-minded about a lot of things, this songs a little about society and the world and what’s going so bad with it. People accepting conformity, accepting lives which they really don’t like. Instead of allowing yourself to be put down by life and allowing life to control you, you control and dictate your own life and where it goes and what you do.
I feel the rage build up in me
I can’t control the way I feel
It’s the corporate world which dictates life
Move aside god we have a new fear, Mankind
Now’s the time to realise the answers lie inside your voice
Open your mouth and make it known, that you are human you have a choice
Not conform to the ideals that are all around
So live your life, and do it proud
I’ll fight for you, if you fight for me
So with a stong head, let’s make them see
We have a vision for a better world
We will resist conformity
We don’t need a revolution of humanity
But a revolution of mentality
Emotion will not suffice
You need action to break away from the pack
So now’s the time to get on the right track with life
Break off the wrong, continue with the right
We all lived by other’s accord
And now it’s time to do what’s right for yourself
I will never stand down to you
I won’t ever try to do you proud
I’m doing this all for me
I will succeed
All we’ve ever known
Is everything that we’ve been told
Always for individuality
Never for the community
You wonder why there’s so much hate?
When you continue to ridicule everyday
You are the problem, you are the answer
So make the right choice before your chance is up
I WANNA KNOW, why everyone is so damn low
THEY GOTTA GROW, given the chance I’m sure they can do what’s right
WHAT I WANNA SEE, is maturity beyond belief, if you open your eyes sure you can see, but it’s these action you make which put you on the right track with your life
Knowledge is strength
Power in mind
These are the traits
Where excellence strives
Be one with you
And be one with me
The Answers will come
Just broaden your being
The seafoam washes up on the shore as soon as it begins to fade. My mind is full of thought, coming and going. A never ending puzzle, me trying to decipher my life and where it’s going, piece by piece I go.
Sometimes it’s hard for me to express the way I feel, it tends to happen once it’s too late, what a drag.
I find myself watching other people, maybe I could learn a lesson from you, even you could be my teacher? I no longer have the motivation that’s necessary to commit to most things I pursue, poor me and so young too.
Sometimes I wish I could be more naive to the world around me, but I’ve seen too much, I know too much. Knowing that there’s nowhere to go but down from this point in life makes me grow disappointed and a little angry, it may be hard to swallow but it’s the truth. Live a little.
Socrates said that all he knew was that he knew nothing, I know everything and I hate that. To say I’m remotely like you would be over exaggeration, I’m nothing like you. Make the remark that we may wear similar clothing or shop at similar stores but what sets me apart from you is in my head.
Oppression, depression, inflation, creation, where can I just be me? Maybe over there?
Women just don’t do it anymore, the hollowness in a relationship is toxic, it can kill a man. Be one with you, be one with life, your life. Stop trying to be what you’re not, start trying to be you for a change. Just stop before being the “right you” becomes a chore, that’s when the line should be drawn.
Nowadays it seems like the worry of image has exceeded the worry of god. The almighty surpassed by the thought of getting that cool haircut, or that cool bands t shirt. Your society plays you like a puppet, you have no freedom, you have limited privilege.
How come it’s the people who love me the most cause me the most grief? It feels like I should never let people get too much of me, that never seems to end well. It’s a never ending cycle of hopelessness. As long as I have me I know I’ll be okay, you rarely let me down, you always think for my best and help to make some sense of this world.
Never fully trust anybody, because you’ll be the one left saying “remember the good old days?” this seems to be the way it goes. You’re nothing but a good time I needed so I could realize I only need myself.
It may seem sad to you that this is where I’m at, but hey what’s the point anyway?
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